What a great article, Paulette. I really enjoyed reading it, following your journey. It’s a deep topic, with many people taking stands all over the map.

My life is lived more on “spiritual” grounds than mental ones, though by this I don’t mean anything religious. Meanwhile, I wonder about your propensity for what seems to amount to playful disobedience, with an eye ever out to game whatever system is in place.

What could be the deeper story, the deeper implications, here? Could you perhaps be one of a new generation of youth coming in with a (forgotten) mission to set humanity on a new course? The forgetting of our pre-incarnational intent is common to us all, here in this Matrixed reality where the mind of humanity has been basically hacked.

Consequences are truly the best teacher, especially early on in life. We’re not stupid — they wake us up. What we do with them says so much about who we are — where we’re going. We have far more choice, far greater opportunity than we’re taught that we do. We’re given but a small slice of what’s available, under the guise of “education.”

One of the main causes of both the current chaos & our feelings of powerlessness lies in the mechanistic bent taken by science several centuries back. Alchemists & philosophers were fully engaged, along with science, to discover the deeper mysteries, what makes life tick.

Anyway, don’t give up on yourself, ever. So glad to see you’re releasing all self-judgment, all tendency to self-criticize. That stuff is counterproductive & you’ve listed some of the many ways that works. Once we let the fun go out of our life, out of our spirit, we may as well die, as all true living has ceased.

We’re all rebels at heart, it’s just that few of us are so willing to indulge that as you were, lol. You’re a brave & independent spirit, & that’s beautiful. 👍

~♥~