Titia — This is the first story of yours that I’ve read. Very well done — feels so very real. It really aligns with how I see this, as well. Pushing ourselves, before we’re ready — before our choices are clear — before that deep, inner voice has spoken — not a good idea, IMO. Best to make friends with time, allow the decision to ripen on its own. It will — if/as we go deep enough.
The sleep-on-it part is so critical. We don’t what what it is we don’t know, yet often that can be revealed on awakening, one morning — we somehow just know.
Also, what just as important as making the decision in the first place, is lining up with it — getting our energies in line with our choice. The truth is likely that we could decide any one of a number of things, & have it turn out well for us — to the extent we choose to align with whatever choice we’ve made.
Then, too, no matter the choice, in 3D duality all coins come with 2 sides. There will be challenges — but we can align with those, too. As hindsight displays, some of the roughest times in our lives bear the sweetest fruits. Challenges, in themselves, aren’t negative — just something we wouldn’t have chosen for ourselves. Sometimes I suspect we require the boost of the challenge, whatever it is — which can be miserable if we’re resisting it, or not, if we align, realizing that everything has 2 sides, so there’s benefit here, as well.
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