I wonder if you can see how you’re playing the victim, here — the perpetually wounded victim, clinging to your hurt & anger, pushing love away?
The doctor prescribes a dose of compassion, of walking a mile in their shoes, not so much for them as for you & the wounds you clearly carry.
Ppl don’t owe us anything, not even the time of day. They are not responsible for our hurt feelings, for how we respond. We’re all only responsible for ourselves. To be really mature is to own & take responsibility for both the internal & external aspects of our life.
There are two basic emotions into which all others fall — love & fear. Underlying all anger, resentment, etc., is fear. Other ppl don’t create in our world unless we give them that power. We weren’t taught to take responsibility for our life & all that happens in it, but it’s ours to own. It’s healthy to look into why/how we magnetized whatever is appearing, there — & own it.
I’m not criticizing, here, just offering another perspective for your consideration. You are not wrong in how you live your life — free will gives you the power & authority to walk your own way. Life, itself, brings us the results. Wishing you only the best. Thanks for sharing.
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PS If this hurts or angers you, that’s on you. If the hurt & anger was in the things we did or said, then everyone would respond the same way to the same things, & clearly we don’t. The hurt & anger is in us, my friend. My prayer is that you choose to receive this in a way that’s beneficial to you, that blesses you.