I don’t generally read long stories, but this one is well written & enjoyable. Your sincerity & integrity show through your honest reporting.
The one thing that stood out to me is your reliance on others, be they family, a partner, or anything external can’t bring the best results. The source of our issues is always internal, no matter how they manifest, externally.
Plus, when the only constant is change, everything lets us down at some point as things inevitably morph. In looking for constancy, we’re sure to be disappointed at some point.
Keep on keeping on. You’re strong & in connection with your feelings. All is well — you’ll find your way & it will be just right for you.
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