haider — Beautifully shared — & you’ve been great at responding to comments, as well. It takes courage to reveal, to write of such deep experiences. Clearly, you’re finding your want into your own heart — ultimately into the one Heart of us all — the One.
Once we find our way into our own depth, even the concept of two-ness is absent — just falls away. So does any sort of judgment, much less a condemning deity. There’s not a scripture on the planet that was not written by humanity. No “God” came down, took up pen/stylus, & wrote. These are people who have taken to themselves the authority to speak for “God.”
I call that Source, but any word will ever fall short. Words are but labels, anyway — pointers, that can only speak about, speak OF that to which they refer. Yet direct experience is available at our core, in our “center.” I call that Heart, but again — it’s just a word ;)
I appreciate the courage embodied in your sharing — the delicacy & sensitivity, as well, allowing each the integrity of their own journey. Continue to walk as you are & you will go far — yet the most important journey is ever & always the one taken within.
Every blessing
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