Full Self-Acceptance
What an interesting trek, watching the self continue to morph. “Self” — hmm — watching whatever it is/isn’t. While I realize that in a journal or two, there was mention of what was to be in the “next” journal, I’m also watching that not happen.
It’s a very strange time for me, now, with multiple journals in draft mode, yet writing new ones before finalizing the drafts. Things that make the mind go hmm. Doing what I can to just go with whatever flow arises, while having many laughs at self’s expense along the way.
UNSTEADY, UNTETHERED
Unsteadiness overall is how this feels, as ever more elements of mind’s control over things, over this life fades. Depending on the moment, either “bon voyage” or “good riddance” is my response. It doesn’t matter, when you’re fully committed to the journey — it just is what it is, & the whole thing is enjoyable, no matter what arises. Well, enjoyable on a certain level.
There are also times of such a sense of being untethered — unsteady in relation to anything of 3D. Nothing calls you in any direction, which mind perceives as rather frightening. “Directionless” isn’t something mind knows how to handle — so you just be, allowing it all to the best of your ability.
These are great opportunities to watch mind at work. It’s much less present, now, but it’s never going away — nor would you want it to. We’re not talking either craziness or being any sort of fanatic in our pursuits, yet the journey takes us on some pretty strange (to mind) adventures, to the extent we’re willing to just allow it to be what it is.
We don’t truly know who or what we are, & many are figuring that out — well, not so much figuring it out as witnessing it in action. No matter where we are on our trek, there are those both ahead of & also behind us, above & beneath us in frequency. There is no ultimate anything here, unless that would be Source, we being elements, manifestations of That.
It takes a while to adapt to the new uncertainty.
ACCEPTING NOT KNOWING
Mind is both used to & rather addicted to its realm of being certain, feeling it knows this or that, having faith in its facts. There’s nothing wrong with that, if we’ll just back far enough away from mind, on the one hand, & on the other realize that mind is but the merest bit of who/what we are.
When we identify with thoughts & beliefs, that’s just not possible.
Getting comfortable with realizing I don’t know what’s going to be posted when was easy, when the journals were arriving single-file. Now they’re not, some even coming from years back, which is a bit awkward. Since everyone’s mind, until tamed, is convinced that earlier times are not current, thus not relevant to today — as if time were actually linear — which is is, but only to mind.
As if a being of higher dimensions couldn’t say something at one time, knowing it would be posted at another — with that time-travel ability we all have, once we untether from mind’s domination of our consciousness. Things are seen drastically differently as we move deeper within.
Nothing is sacred, nothing is holy, in that nothing remains the same in our view — it all shifts.
I guess what’s coming apart, now, is my tether to memory — to any sort of structured flow of time. It’s one thing to say time is one, is all bundled into the NowHere, & another thing to walk that talk. What I see, reading other people’s blogs, is such a variety, a lovely garden of people stepping up to the plate in their own lives, also walking their talk more & more.
It all looks so different, from the different perspectives that we present, a veritable garden of such diversity — no one “wrong,” but also no one “right” — just being true to Who we are, which is present in varying degrees. We just are where we are, & with acceptance of that the door opens ever wider into whatever our next step reveals.
FULL SELF-ACCEPTANCE
What’s missing in so many Americans, especially, is varying lack of self-acceptance — call it Self-acceptance, if you like. We’re just not comfortable in our own skin. We know not why, in most cases, but if we’re simply aware of it, that helps.
Until that much self-awareness is present, there’s really no room for self-acceptance. We’re too busy looking-up to others, in so many cases, & it’s all so reasonable, too — to the mind.
There are so many myths about God out there, it’s no wonder we find ourselves in such a state. I find absolutely no non-acceptance in Source — no condemnation of any sort. I like a quote by Abraham-Hicks that illustrates this:
Daily Quote — 8/1/2017
“GOD is not helping anyone defeat anyone. The only one that can ever defeat any of you is yourself.”
Excerpted from Los Angeles, CA on 8/4/01
Our Love
Esther (Abraham and Jerry)
Source doesn’t take sides — nor do we, when present in Heart.
We’re all fully accepted, fully Loved. As the Good Book says, the sun shines on the just & the unjust, alike, lol — it’s only the mind doing the for-and-against dance, often enough against the self.
All of this begins to come to light as we’re exiting reliance on mind to chart our course, just letting things flow as they will, moving as we’re internally guided. We hate no one & nothing, finding hate quite absent from Heart — much less Source. Not just hate, but any negative stance, be it dislike, irritation, disgust, or whatever — just gone.
We’ve long lived in a mind-crafted world.
We’re finding that world literally falling apart — that’s our personal experience at some point. While it’s disconcerting to the mind, to the extent we’ve backed away from that a good bit, it’s not at all bothersome to us — just strange, just unaccustomed.
There’s that thing with time, again — less reliance on the past, on what has been, as our focus moves more firmly into the NowHere stance. Sometimes we’re in nowhere land — feeling a bit lost. Just part of the trek.
What I find is that, by remaining in self-acceptance & just staying the course, the ship rights itself on its own, with no input from “me,” what the heck ever that is. 😉 I’m not even sure this self-acceptance is mine, for what comes to me this may well be Source at work, & I’m just perceiving that. IDK. Nor does it matter in the least — just is what it is.
Mind wishes the writing, the journals, would come from a steady perspective, a steady space of some kind. Clearly, they don’t, & I’m not putting on any fronts, here, seeking to make myself look better. It’s just the flow of whatever is arising, & I accept that. I hope for all of us increasing measures of self-acceptance, of gaining comfort just being whatever, whoever we are in every Now moment — being true to our awareness.
Ultimately, there’s no self in any of us — just the One, with us role-playing aspects of That. So truly glad I’ve touched down pretty deeply into that seeming emptiness, but I don’t even know if this is coming from there.
I’m also learning caution as I witness how subtle mind can be in its take-over of awareness, slipping in when least expected. We only notice it due to our time spent in higher consciousness — in Heart — by how that contrasts with how we now feel. (Mind cannot spot this, in other words ;)
Thus, there may be no part of my talk I consistently walk.
Well, so be it, as being fake to try to put myself into any mold just ain’t happenin’. Being true to the Now moment is all I care to be, so mind can take its standards & flush them. This is real, & guided by strongly held intent to be true to That. It’s enough. We don’t have to be perfect, friends. It’s okay — whatever we are, whatever we’re experiencing, it’s okay — we’re fully, whole-Heartedly accepted by Source.
Let’s be about accepting the self.
Namaskar
~♥~
4:58 am, Monday 2017/10/09, 1st, Mayan day 2 Reed / Ben
PS As this journal demonstrates, you can be so far “out there” that your mind doesn’t know your ass from a hole in the ground, & still be accepted — by Source AND by self. 😆
