Dying to the Flesh?
Reading a very sincere commenter’s list of questions on a William Buhlman interview regarding crossing over, I was moved to come & share something here — something so deep that no words can convey it, but I’m moved to share, anyway.
WHAT — WHY — HOW?
What’s it all about? Why are we here? If we’re these great multidimensional spiritual beings, using bodies as flesh vehicles for our 3D experience — why the heck don’t we remember Who we are — as Source-in-form? These are the sort of question s/he asked.
In America, at least, we’re likely familiar with many Bible quotes — such as needing to die to the flesh to inherit the Kingdom of God. Though we seldom pause to reflect deeply on this, it’s worth our time. In my elder age I’ve discovered that it’s nothing at all like anything mind thought it would be. It’s not something accessible to the mind aspect of our being. This goes to Heart.
LOST & ALONE
How many feel lost & alone — at least sometimes? That would likely be most of us. Perhaps you’re in the midst of this “dying” process right now. Could be. We hear of “The valley of the shadow of death,” too — it fits right in. It’s not a literal dying, of course, but perhaps something even deeper. It’s not a death of the soul, either, though it may be painful enough to seem that way.
Who, like me, feels as if you’ve lived several lifetimes, already — just in this one? Who looks back to the person you were, say at 10 or 20 or 40 years of age — & just can’t relate to who you were, back then, anymore? I know I’m not alone here. Though you may never have shared this with anyone, or perhaps just a close few, so many of us have this experience. Life in 3D gets stranger as we mature.
LEARNING TO LAUGH
We once were under the delusion that everything in life could be understood — if only we studied hard enough, took the right courses, asked the right people. By the time we pass 50 or 60, we look back on such ideas/attitudes as a bit of a joke. No way is everything here understandable — certainly not to those who delve no deeper than the mind. Such answers more often come to those plumbing their depths — their surprising depths.
As I share in much of my writings, we don’t even know the self, much less the divine Self, our deeper reality. Mind looks ever to the outside for answers, figuring with all the time lived by so many people, surely there are those with the answers we seek. Most elders come to realize that is just not the case. Much of the truly ancient spiritual teachings have been hidden away, altered, or destroyed. Welcome to the Matrix.
Oh, there are many who portray themselves as spiritual teachers, yet I find that most of them don’t yet know Who they truly are. Precious few speak from that deep inner space/place/sanctum I like to call Heart, to distinguish between it & the physical or chakra heart.
How do I know this? I’m not saying I do. What I can share is that, when you’re centered within, you “read” people, you sense their energy & where they’re coming from, so to speak. Someone speaking from mind & mental knowledge is easy to spot when you touch down into your core. (IMO, William Buhlman is a worthy teacher, speaking from direct experience of what he shares.)
Dying to the flesh — what is that all about? Again, I don’t propose to give you any answers, here, that will work for you. Each one is in charge of the self/Self — our answers always lie deep within. Yet that Inner Being is ever present, always ready, whenever we set the phone/TV/video games down long enough to enter the silence.
Some want to connect with benevolent ET or other-dimensional beings. Just know they are one with our own divine inner being, or Self — so entering Heart is also the “portal” for such encounters. In higher dimensions the unity of All That Is becomes ever more clear & apparent.
Some call that centering in the Now, the present moment — the NowHere of every moment. We enter the nowhere, the void, by being still in the NowHere. There is a price to pay for our entry there, however — a very high price. We must die to who we think we are, to all of our opinions, attitudes, and beliefs.
APPROACHING THE “NARROW GATE”
Why? Those things won’t fit through the narrow gate, the entry point in discovering Heart. If you’re old enough, you already realize that probably 98% of what we’ve been taught to believe is pretty much worthless. Oh, it gets us by for a while, sure —in 3D — but it doesn’t bring those answers we so desperately seek. Mind never will. It is not the vehicle that goes where we want to go.
PRICE OF ENTRY
Letting go of all of our beliefs is the price for entry, there. Who is brave enough? Not all at once, of course — this is the trek of a lifetime. Still, if over time we’re not dropping the nonsense with which we’ve been programmed, we’ll never find the way in. We’re like dogs in the Matrix, chasing our tails.
Come far enough on this trek, & you realize that there’s nothing really worthwhile in our current beliefs. We’re taking them on the say-so of those who promulgate them — how do we know they are true, they are real? We’re taught to take them on faith. I suggest that’s not the ideal sort of faith, yet that’s for each one to decide. It just doesn’t help to tell others what to do or to believe.
Once you know you’re truly an aspect of Creator, of the divine, things take on a whole different hue. Nothing is ever the same. Your whole perspective takes a massive shift — as I’m sure it has, perhaps even many times, for many of you. That’s how it’s been for me, at least, & I trust I’m not alone in this — even though not many speak of it.
Why not? Who is able to understand? Yet let us not stand under anyone, any belief, any cultural teachings — let us rather go within to “innerstand.” It’s the path to the end of the rainbow, where is found the gold of innerstanding at least some of the deeper things.
MAKING THE SHIFT
So what happens — slowly, if you’re lucky — is that you find yourself dropping old attitudes, old beliefs as you move on through your life experience. You’re changing. Can you see how this could, indeed, be the slow death process of the “old man,” the one with whom you used to identify so closely?
It’s a path of surrender, of seemingly endless letting go. Nor is it an easy road to take. You’ll likely come across, or even enter, the “dark night of the soul.” This is the deep part of the surrender, the releasing of who you thought you were. And here’s the sticky part — you’re not offered anything to replace what you’re letting go. You’re not able to see past where you currently are — in the midst of your anguish, your pain.
GOD? SOURCE? ALLAH?…
Sure, you’ll call out, even intensely, to the God you’ve been taught to believe is the One. You may discover, as I did, that that One doesn’t exist outside of You — outside of Who You truly are, Source-in-form. This only adds to the suffering, of course. You may find bits of solace here & there, but overall the pain doesn’t go away.
I’ve “died” like this several times, already in this lifetime — each one a whole separate experience, totally different at the time — entering ever new depths, within. Nor do I have your answers for you — it was enough of a challenge to find mine — as we each will come to do.
The earliest “deaths” are so far behind me that they truly seem like other lifetimes, so distant am I now from who I was back then. The most intense one I encountered on discovering for myself that the God to whom I’d prayed & sung devotionally all of my life was but a myth — that the Kingdom is truly found within.
I didn’t know that, at the time — I just knew that what I encountered at times when in Heart was far different from what any religion, anywhere teaches. When we touch down in this ultimate Oneness (which no words can convey) we are transported into something magical, something so unlike anything we’d ever been taught. There is NO judgment there, no condemnation of any kind, of anyone or anything — only Love.
I remember one time when I was transported up into the heights — I won’t try to describe it beyond that. So deeply enfolded in the divine Presence was I, it felt as if I’d merged with the Source — the Heart of God (whom I choose to call Source, the source of All That Is). As I began to offer my thanks, I somehow seemed to be descending out of that One — so I paused, disconcerted.
In the pause, I was immediately back, enfolded once again in the divine embrace. Again, taken to such heights, my soul was moved to offer thanks — again I began to drift away. Three times this happened before it finally clicked. In this Oneness there is no two, no possibility of anything outside of the One. When we offer thanks, we are in subject-object mode — one thanking, the other being thanked. That just didn’t work in that state.
Thus I learned, by personal experience, one of the most vital lessons of this or any life. No words were spoken — nothing was said — it was the direct experience of the consequences of my actions. Thus are many answers given, I’ve discovered, so that I now realize that words can never, no never contain nor convey That, or things of Heart. As Eckhart Tolle says, words can only point.
It was after that experience with gratitude — how it’s bound to subject-object mode, to 3D — that I learned the secret of appreciation. Appreciation is experienced in the moment, as we enter deeply into joy. Be it a flower’s fragrance, the antics of a child or a pet, the beauty of the night sky — whatever it be — our Heart response is appreciation, which occurs in oneness with that.
Anyway, back to this dying to the flesh — are you getting the sense of it? As we let go of old attitudes, old beliefs, customs, & habits, we’re letting the “old man” sort of die — just fall away. This is my Heart understanding of “dying to the flesh.” It can be blissful — or traumatic. You won’t get away without experiencing both, is my bet — a least I haven’t. Just remember, you’re never alone — “alone” = all one.
9:57 pm, Friday 2017/05/05, Mayan day 1 Wisdom